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(January – October 2024 in utero)

In Western North Carolina in late September – early October 2024, my life quickly shifted from worrying about the crypto markets to worrying about getting power and potable water for my family to grieving the loss of my unborn son.

This letter is for him.

Dear Walter,

I’m so sorry for losing you, yet so grateful you came into our lives to make us better. You brought out the best in everyone. I wrote you so many letters and recorded voice memos so that I could share them with you one day. But now you’ve been spared a life on this torrid, cruel, dense earth and your soul can serve a higher purpose in the ethereal realm. Your mama Krisstal has a vivid connection with the angels and she has shown me that souls like yours—brand new beings of pure light—can do wonderful things from hidden places. And if that means you’ve been spared from suffering in the dark, heavy density of this broken world, then maybe I can find peace in that one day. One day.

You were so great. You told your mama what kinds of food you liked. You loved healthy fats and sweets and savory treats and you danced and kicked when you were excited. I would sing and play guitar for you and you would tell your mom, “my dad is music!” I could feel your joyful, boisterous, mischevious energy and I loved every moment.

Today, when I saw you, Walter, I cried tears of sadness when they should have been tears of joy. I am so sad, Walter. Sad I never got to watch you grow, train you in martial arts, teach you guitar, hike through nature together, swim down pristine rivers and watch you fall in love.  You are pure love and continue to be pure love, wherever you are.

Walter the watery light warrior, you were ready to shine your light. We had the best baby shower for you and all your admirers were there celebrating and blessing you. 

For the last eight and a half months, my life no longer mattered because I lived for you. Every decision I’ve made has been for you. And now that you’re gone, I’m not sure why I’m here. You would probably tell me I’m here to help, to share joy and to lessen suffering. I don’t know if I’m ready to do that without you, Walter.  But I’ll try.

I have experienced loss before and so has your mother. We have seen the selfishness and cruelty of people who destroy life for their own gain. We are being attacked every day by those who never found the love that shines in you. So you will be my guiding light, my son, so I don’t end up like them. Then maybe, one day, I’ll be more like you: pure light, pure joy and pure love.

One day.

I love you, Walter David Leddy.

Infinite love,

your papa

Matthew August Leddy

watching you light up the night sky ✨

There will be a funeral service for close friends and family blessing Walter David Leddy at 11AM on Monday, October 14th, 2024, at St. Luke’s Episcopal Church in Asheville, North Carolina. In lieu of flowers, St. Luke’s will accept donations for a memorial site dedicated to sweet baby Walter. 🙏🏼

To honor his soul, we will donate baby supplies and offer emotional support to mothers and fathers in need during the recovery of Western North Carolina. We are calling this venture WALTER CARES.

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Inquiries: matthew@leddysetgo.tv